Article Display
Email  |  My Account  |  Donate
A number of years ago, we went through a trial in our household, and a friend approached my husband, Wally, and said, "I discern that you are going through a spiritual trial."

He talked to Wally and prayed with him and then came to me. He said, "I've been praying with your husband and I discerned that Wally is going through a trial."

I said, "Yes, he is." Our friend continued, "And I have discerned the problem." I said, "What is it?" He said, "You." "Me!" "Yes, it's you." "What do you think I'm doing wrong?"

He told me, "You're just too active in the ministry." (This happened long before I was as active as I am now.) He went on to say, "Wally can't have a ministry because yours is so important. You're in the way."

When he said that, it hurt me so much that I couldn't tell anyone about it. I didn't go to anyone. I just hurt inside. Have you ever had anything hurt so much that you couldn't talk about it? That's how much it hurt.

All of our married life, and before, Wally always encouraged me in every respect, but I thought, "Is this what he really feels? Has he just been putting on a front? Has he not been honest with me? Is he really down on me? Has this really bothered him?"

And I became hard and brittle inside. I'll be honest—I became like iron. I just wanted to crack apart and throw it all in.

Then one day I told a friend about it. My friend said, "You're carrying all this around. Why don't you ask Wally?" So I did, and he laughed at me. He said, "How could you think that when I've always encouraged you?" 

"How could you even let that enter your mind? You know the problem in that man's life. He has a beautiful ministry, but he has an aspect of women that is not the total concept of what God has. He doesn't really discern the fullness. He doesn't understand a call."

Then I remembered the things this man had told us before he was married. He had said that when he married he wouldn't want his wife to play the piano or organ, to sing, or to teach. She wouldn't do anything but cook and sew for him.

So I turned my anger on the friend! I thought, "That's a terrible thing! He could have broken up our marriage over this." Even his name made me angry. If he came through town and wanted to be with us, I always had an excuse so I wouldn't have to be with him.

I'll be honest—I didn't like him. I got hard and brittle on the inside. Why? Because I didn't discern the Body. The Father said, "You're to forgive. You're to pray for people who despitefully use you. You're to bless them and do good to them."

I certainly didn't discern that! I was too busy being angry.

But the Lord will help, because He doesn't want us to be cast iron and crack. He may see you sway, but He wants to take the Word to you and bring you back to your original position.

One day I received a letter from a university that has a woman in a high position. This friend had a position there, too. The letter invited me to speak there. I thought, "When I see him, I'm going to ask him how he likes to work for a woman." Terrible!

Why did I feel like that? Because I had not discerned that the Body of Christ is to be forgiving. I was still hard and brittle inside.

God called me to pray before I went there. Do you know whom I saw when I first arrived? Our friend! Do you know what I thought when I saw him? I thought, "I just love you." It wasn't my love. It was the love of Jesus flowing through me.

I had lunch with him and his wife, and afterward she visited with me. She said that they were going through a terrible trial and asked me to pray for them.  God worked with me to pray for them and dropped faith in my heart for them.

To this day, when I hear their names, I just love them. Do you know what happened when I prayed for them? I believe God accepted me and restored me from the captivity in my spirit that could have cracked me.

He didn't want me to be cast iron. He wanted me to be high-tension steel. Sure, the winds had come, but He wanted the Word to bring me back into place.

Source: Beat Tension by Marilyn Hickey
Excerpt permission granted by Marilyn Hickey Ministries

Author Biography

Marilyn Hickey
Web site: Marilyn and Sarah
 
"Encouraging, optimistic, always upbeat and energetic" at the young age of 84, Marilyn Hickey actively ministers internationally, most recently in Sudan, Israel, Jordan, Egypt, India, China and Pakistan, as well as domestically in the United States through Bible Encounters and speaking engagements.
Read more...

About Us

The online ministry of cfaith has been helping people discover faith, friends and freedom in the Word since 2000. Cfaith provides a unique and comprehensive collection of faith-building resources for the worldwide faith community.

At cfaith, you can strengthen your faith and deepen your understanding of the Word of God by digging into the vast collection of teaching articles, streaming audio and video messages, and daily devotionals. No other website offers such a unique and extensive collection of spiritual-growth resources aimed at helping you grow in your knowledge of the Word.

Read More...

 

 

Support Us

Why support cfaith?


(All contributions are 100% tax deductible)


SUPPORT CFAITH WITH ONE CLICK!

For every Internet search you make using
goodsearch, cfaith will receive one penny!

GS Logo 250x38

Contact Us

Business Hours:


Monday—Friday: 9 a.m.—5 p.m. CST
Saturday & Sunday: Closed

Phone:

(763) 488-7800 or (800) 748-8107

Mailing Address: 

CFAITH.com
9201 75th Avenue North
Brooklyn Park, MN 55428

 

Login Form

Please ignore the “Secret Key” field; it is not needed to log in to cfaith.

Login Change Article

Spring360x442
You need to enable user registration from User Manager/Options in the backend of Joomla before this module will activate.